"You know, bad memories are a lot like farts. You’ve got to walk away quickly if you want to escape them unscathed, but If you stand there and dwell on them for too long, they will linger with you in your misery and embarrassment for a seemingly unbearable period of time."

Carli Ihde

When I was in 4th or 5th grade I was invited to a friend’s backyard camping birthday party. My mom used to babysit her a bit back in the day and I considered her a good friend. We used to trade Pokemon cards, have sleepovers and watch movies together while eating ranch flavored popcorn. Although she was one of the “popular girls” we hung out together and I felt really cool being at one of her parties with all of her chic and rich friends. I was just excited to be there playing Truth or Dare, drinking soda, paging through beauty magazines. This was what the popular girls did and I was mingling and mixing with them flawlessly. It came to my friend’s turn in the game of Truth or Dare when she picked truth. She then quickly turned to me while everyone was watching, like she had been waiting all night for this moment and said “Carli, I only invited you to my party because you invited me to your birthday and my mom said I had to” Some of the girls laughed, others turned to me and gave me sympathetic faces. You could probably imagine the unbearable wave of absolute dread and nausea that rushed through me. I immediately realized I was trapped, held captive in this tiny tent in her backyard filled with girls who didn’t want anything to do with me. I was suffocating. I remember thinking “I want to go home, I want to go home” I was desperately rethinking everything I had ever known, I was doubting everything about myself from the way I talked, walked, dressed, acted. Grasping at who I thought I was. Critiquing anything and everything I was good at, maybe I was really bad at it, maybe every time someone smiled at me it was really because of an inside joke at my expense or worse, out of pity… I’m officially a joke, the girl no one really wants around. The girl who totally fell for the Invitation Trick and actually showed up! It was probably the oldest trick in the book, and I fell right into the live trap and they were about to throw me into the pit of poisonous snakes. But if I left now I would be made fun of for the rest of the night, the rest of my LIFE maybe. So I stayed all night and left early the next day. I faced the music head on and made the best I possibly could out of a rotten situation.
I don’t know why I just remembered this today, It’s been so many years since and I know at that age I had probably tried to push it out of my mind. I’m glad I didn’t recall that memory any sooner in my life or it would have probably, in some way scarred my psyche. What would have happened if I ran? What would happen if I had called my mom right then and there and walked out on those girls snickering behind my back? I would have been a totally different person. I shudder to think how those preteens could have trampled my self esteem at such a young age, it really could have ruined everything for me. It’s so ridiculous how easily someone’s life can change, how mailable our minds are and how easily we doubt ourselves when it seems like everyone in the world who matters hates you. But it didn’t change anything, not even close. If anything, it just made me a bad ass.
I hope this story was somewhat interesting enough to read all the way through. I’d really like to hear some of your stories of how you were faced with a situation that you had to fight through and be true to yourself in order to face the future with pride. I hope I’ve inspired you in some small way to be proud of your own self worth and to appreciate how powerful your self respect and self esteem can be.

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Today’s theme is “Self Portrait” Kind of an “Introduce yourself” Kind of thing. What defines you? What defines your work?

Feel free to submit as many drawings as you want as often as you want (that means you don’t have to everyday if you can’t) You can also take as long as you need and you have the ability to go back to any previous theme you want to be inspired by.

When I first thought of this I thought that everyone was going to be as excited as I was about it and I pictured it kind of like this. 

But I’ve got a feeling it’s ultimately going to be like this

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So let’s get artin’ you guys!

Thank you for inspiring me

-Carli

Name Ideas?

I can’t think of a name for my online daily inspiration community. Any name suggestions?

Calling all… EVERYONE

Hey there. How Art Thou?
This is for anyone interested in inspiration and making more artwork (Not if you’re an “artist” or not, this is for EVERYONE)….
In an average day (maybe in a perfect world)… we spend about 9 hours at work, 8 hours sleeping, 3 hours eating. That leaves us a good 4 hours for miscellaneous activities like exercise, watching tv, reading etc. Some of you may work more or have a lot more free time, but regardless, I know we are busy. Well if I had a dollar for every time someone told me “I wish I could find more time to do artwork, more inspiration or just more practice” I do believe I’d be a thousandaire. The one thing I find most difficult about making artwork is actually getting started. And frankly, you can’t get started without some inspiration to do it in the first place. So… My question is… Would anyone be willing to make a drawing everyday along with me? Just to be able to say “Yes, I draw something everyday” “Yes, I’m inspired” “Yes, I’m constantly challenging myself and getting better!”
I know that when I went to the Kubert School the one thing that helped me improve IMMENSELY is the fact that I pretty much always had a drawing utensil in my hand and I constantly had artwork to do and someone challenging me to do it. SO I NEED YOUR HELP. (and I can help you in return) It’s so hard to do artwork on my own these days, specially since I’m working an average of 57 hours a week, but maybe if we challenged each other it would be an inspiration and a kick in the butt for all of us.
I understand that sometimes we just can’t, sometimes we are away from anything drawing related, sometimes we frankly just don’t want to. But even if you just do 2-3 drawings a week that is at least SOMETHING.
If you are interested in doing this with me, let’s see a show of hands! If I get enough people (over 10 hopefully) then I’m going to make a facebook page/tumblr page dedicated to a daily sketch challenge. These sketches can be anywhere from 30 seconds (a gesture), a 10 min sketch or a full on painting (if you are really inspired) It can be any medium and I don’t care at all if you are late on any of the themes. I just want to see you guys making some art and loving it.
So let’s band together you guys and inspire each other. God knows I need it, and It’s so hard to do art on your own (Specially when you’re out of school and no one is making you do it)
No matter what level you are at, no matter how old you are, no matter what your style is or medium of choice, no matter how busy or what your career is. Heck! Who cares if it’s a drawing or not! You could write a story, sing a song, sculpt a statue, build something, quilt or act a scene out about it! I just want everyone to do what they love to do but wish they had the time and inspiration to do it. I’d really love to see all of you joining in on this. Let’s help each other
And for those of you who have talked about me about this before… You know who you art (are)
Let’s do this thing

-Carli

P.S. Message me with questions if you have them

I think it’s so sad how our society just feeds off of negative energy. I wish we would start spreading rumors about how nice people are and how much we respect them. Just think of how awesome the world would be if everyday, we traded a negative rumor for a positive one.

Please everyone, just think before you speak, because someday someone out there will get really hurt and we can’t all deal with gossip and still stay strong.


Please swap your gossip today.